Soulful tears

I feel like I'm walking 20 steps behind my own shadow.  Not sure if I want to catch up or if I can. With every breath the end is near. Fading away from existence into a 6 ft deep hole, dark, cold and alone. With nowhere to turn and no one to turn too. Fighting with myself to break free, to let go. Anger fueled by frustration that keeps me down. Pain rises from the depths of my quiet soul. Tears fall to frequently, dried tear marks down my cheeks, tear stained sheets. Tears turn into a stream flowing into an abyss of lost souls, weeping, tortured and trapped with no desire to be freed.
Photo by Donnetta Williams
Location Jacksonville Fl

My last dead end destination

I am upset with myself on how much I am loathing the thought to return. I thought that perhaps being off for two weeks would push me to see how much I need to be there, unfortunately it didn't. This place is no different than the next. (just a paycheck) In life I've chosen to jump lanes still ending up on the same path, same destination-no where. Dead ends is where I end up. I'm patiently waiting, never looking to be content with where I am (career wise) for everything else in life is falling into place. I am working harder at writing for me. Writing to fullfill my wants, needs & desires. To one day accomplish my dream come true. I just need to believe-that I'm good enough. #fearlessin2013
Photo by Donnetta Williams
Location Downtown Jax

Again with the damn 'gun control' discussions

A poster responds to my post on my opinion (we are all still entitled to one right) on gun control. My initial response were to those signifying how guns allows persons to defend themselves from criminals. I responded that elem school aged children can't arm themselves? They can't can they? The response was on the fact that the adults could have been armed in meaning (I guess) the teachers, his statement that most of the shootings happen in a gun free zone? I guess to say that if the teachers, administration were allowed to carry weapons than it would have solved the situation. It seems to me that gun happy, rights to bare arms persons are going to defend their right to carry guns no matter what? They will argue that gun control wouldn't matter, there would be no reason for it due to we need to be armed that this world should be made up of gun carrying, trigger pulling happy, people just because. My response: I don't need to check the facts bottom line is that neither teachers nor myself should have to carry a gun? Is this not the bottom line? People act out of fear and many has lost their lives innocent people such as young black men recently in the news because a gun owner felt the need to exercise his right to shoot an innocent person and it was solely out of fear. I shouldn't have to be fearful of my life just because a gun owner is fearful, unstable or a gun happy criminal that had to get his gun from somewhere I'm sure guns on the street is no different than the drug war we can't seem to solve because somewhere someone needs that organized crime to stay afloat. And or whatever the case may be. I can say its not fair but hell life isn't fair and unfortunately this is the life we are all living an unfair life...I guess I should go out and arm myself ASAP.